Change

All Change Comes With Hard Work and Dedication.

Lately a lot has changed. Perhaps it is just within me. Regardless, it has changed. I applied for graduation this week. Its like 7 more months of school, and it's hard to imagine. School has been my sole focus for so long. This is one change I am unbelievably ready, and stoked for.
I have also been trying to be a better person. Improve myself. Which has meant more focus on school and religion and the people that matter. And I realized how hard it is to change. Habits are hard to break. Routine, whether it's productive or not, becomes habit and when you choose to change that it is never easy. I got sick and lost my fitness routine, and now it's chilly out so I have less desire to run outside. I got used to being quiet in class and it has been hard learning to speak up. All those little things I wished I was better at, well I am trying to actually be better at.

The biggest change I feel has been so inward. It has been on how I view things. Like first off, I cut my hair. It's to my chin. So much shorter than it has ever been. And I love it. But it was a matter of doing something I wanted to and doing it because there was no harm in it. It just took courage on my part. Something I tend to lack.

Within I have realize that there are so many people that really matter to me.But then there are some that are like addictions. You dont want to let them go, even though you know they dont make you a better person. I have been trying to step away from you. Cross my fingers. And then there are people so opposite. You have become a best friend, for life. Your family is like my family, I love going to your house, and I could wrestle with your siblings any, and everyday. Oh and another, you are the best to live with. Our chats on the bed or our arriving onesies.. I love it all. You make my day so often.

And then there those that are so far. I miss home. And the four of you. 1. You are in Toronto. At least we have letters. I love you dear. 2. I was not the best friend this summer hey, Sorry. I dont know what happened. I am glad we fb so much, I miss you. 3. Saturdays just never live up to what I expect anymore. Your fault. I have unreasonable Saturday expectations. You are the best. Please move here. 4. How you end up creeping into my blog so much, well nobody will know. But even though we have not talked that much lately, well you still inspire me. And I dont really know how. But you do. You just change things.

Life never stops changing. And I am glad for that. I really am. It keeps things exciting.